Today is my mom's 5th death anniversary. She died from multiple organ failure. She was diagnosed with a rare kidney disease and was sick for three years before she died.
Her sickness was inborn. She was exposed from too much chemical when she was young. According to her, their neighbor used to be a distributor of ammonia and the fumes coming from it would make them and half of the neighborhood run from it. I guess people were pretty ignorant of their rights back then because they never thought of complaining to local officials about the company.
It was inborn and do you know what triggered it to come out and made itself known? Heat stroke! My parents went to the mall and they decided to just walk the street going to our house. It was really hot that day my mom wanted to flag a tricycle but my dad wanted to walk to they did. Upon reaching my grandma's house (which is 5 houses away from ours), my mom collapsed. It was heat stroke and when we had her checked, that's when so many complications were seen.
I still remember those days my mom was suffering. There was no commercial treatment available for her kind of sickness. We had to go to Mayo Clinic in the US to get her into an experimental program. But we didn't have the capacity to do that. Her doctors (she had four or five different specialists for organs affected by her kidney disease) just made sure that the complications get treated as they arose. It wasn't enough.
September 29, 2005 at 9:30am my mom died of heart failure. She was in a coma for over 12 hours before that.
I still miss her so bad. Especially when I feel so burdened. She's my ally. I think all moms are like that. They are on your side whether you're right or wrong. My mom's like that. We used to be so deep in debts. I was able to give her a comfortable like but it wasn't enough. I wish I was able to give more. A year and a half after she died, I started receiving blessings after blessings. My sisters were able to find good jobs. My brother started college. It would have been all the more happier if my mom was still here. I love my dad. We all love our dad. But it's never the same without mommy around.
I love you, Mommy! I still miss you so bad! I wish you're still here with us and that I could have given you more.
4 comments:
Wow, what a sad but wonderful post! I am sorry your mother passed away. It does not seem fair for parents to pass before we do. It is always my greatest fear. It sounds like you have many wonderful memories of your mother, keep those close!
Hugs :)
Hi! I really envy such relationships. I know though that it is never too late to start one.
Thank you for sharing.
I know how you feel because I also had a same experience. My Mom also died but because of cervical cancer. It was year 2003. It is very saddening because she is also very close to me. I also miss her but I know that she is happy because she is with God now. I also know that she is still watching over me.
I'm sorry your mother passed away. It's very sad, indeed. It's good that you still have the rest of your family with you - you have your siblings and your father. One way or the other, I know that I'll lose my parents in the future. I'm an only child, and I don't have any close relatives that will be there when I have to go something like what you've been through. Like I said, you still have brothers and sisters. You are lucky. Cherish them. Have a great weekend! ♥
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