Yes, I am! :-*

I am scared of going back to the corporate world. Yes, I admit as much. I am scared of finding out that I don't know as much and that I am no longer interested in the job that I used to have. I've been out of the loop for more than 5 years already that I don't know if I still can work the same job or if I will just be relegated to a much lower position because of my 'absence' in the corporate world.

There I said it!

:(

Do I really have to prove myself?!?

I am not a very girlish woman. I mean I act and talk in a boyish way even at my age when I should have discarded this when I left my teenage years. I turned 33 a few days ago. I don't like kikay stuff as much as normal girls do. I prefer to be simple and bare of accessories most of the time. I wear shirts more than blouses and I prefer pants more than skirts. I don't have a boyfriend or a potential partner at my age and I don't have any plans of ever having a baby. I am considering marriage but WITH A MAN who doesn't need a baby of his own, too. I am not your typical woman but that doesn't mean I am gay. I AM NOT A LESBIAN!

I know some people think I am one. My mom used to think I was a lesbian just because in college I had a very close friend who's one. I hanged out at her place most of the time because she was so fun to be with and her house was only a couple of blocks away. But we had five very close common women friends we also hanged out with. I was actually closer to two Chinese women friends than her.

Don't get me wrong, I don't have anything against gay people. But do I really have to spell it out and tell everyone, especially close friends, that I am not one?!?

Just because I admire very few beautiful women doesn't mean I am attracted to them sexually. I also admire tons of crazy hot men!

God I hate explaining myself! And on a Monday at that!

Fuck!

It's my... birthday! ;-)

Happy Birthday to ME!!!