Concrete plans

6 more additional. Possibly 2 more new.
It's a lot of work but I know I can do it.
Now, the only thing I need is focus.
Unrelenting focus on my concrete plans.
Maybe I should call it goals, hmm?

I am excited!
It's a lot of work but this kind of busyness excites me more than anything.

On with the concrete steps to reach my goals!

;-)

Positive. Happy. NOT!

I swear I am trying so darn hard day in and day out to be positive. I try not to dwell on negative thoughts as I know it will only lead me nowhere. But I guess there are just not enough positive stuff in me right this very moment.

Being positive equates to happiness. That's how it's always been with me. If I am positive about my life and everything/everyone around me, then I know happiness is just around the corner. It's absent in my life now.

I am NOT happy right now!

:(

Discord among family members

One of the things that I hate in a large family is the usual discord among family members. Seeing each other all the time, bumping into one another when one or more members are not in the mood, bickering/disagreeing over something...

I hate it when there's tension in the house. You can feel it creating a huge gap among family members and being the eldest, I feel responsible for forging peace between love ones who are not on speaking terms. And it's not an easy responsibility to take on. I am sure there are persons out there who can relate to me.

How I wish we have a huge house with many rooms where people need not see each other when they don't feel like it.

*sigh*

Marathon writing!

You wouldn't believe just how many articles I've written for the past two days. MANY! I will not mention the exact number anymore as you might think I'm bragging but I did write a lot.

And I am happy with the turnout.

Thank you, brain! Keep the creative juices flowing.

Masama ang loob...

Pwede naman di ba? Na sumama ang loob ko. Paano ba namang hindi sasama kung iyong mga 'kaibigan' kong tinuturing eh parang ang lalayo.

Hay.

Basta. Hindi naman ako mapagtanim ng sama ng loob pero I think this should serve as a lesson to me. This already happened nung mamatay ang Mama. Tapos eto naman sa Nanay. Sa tingin ko kahit ako ang mamatay wala man lang magkukusa na mag-aya para man lang dumalaw at makiramay ng personal at di iyong dinaan lang sa Facebook. Ni sa text nga wala!

Maiintindihan ko pa iyong mga nasa ibang bansa. Pero bakit si Jhing nagawan ng paraan? Nakakasama talaga ng loob. Bigla ko lang naalala iyong mga effort ko noong sila ang nawalan ng mahal sa buhay. Paano nga ba ako nakiramay noon? Kahit noong si Mommy ang mamatay ni hindi man lang nagsipagtagal sa lamay. Naalala ko lang bigla. Hay.

Oo masama ang loob ko talaga!