Tuesday, August 19, 2014

A little bit inspired ;-)

It's been a while since I last posted something here. I haven't been remiss in my blogging duties but I have been slacking off a bit because I wasn't too inspired to write. Now, though, I am a little bit inspired! I am thanking a local writer whom I have been reading and following for the past two or three years. I am currently reading the latest book she wrote and I am loving every page of it! It is making my creative juices flowing...

I have three finished projects that I am debating whether to submit now or edit some more. I want to submit one but I have yet to decide on a pseudonym that I'll be using. It's a tough decision because I want the name to reflect my personality, writing style, and, at the same time, be an interesting one that it will immediately catch the attention of a book shopper looking for a new name to read.

My sister has been throwing random names at me but I am not too excited over it. I think I will know the perfect name once I hear it. Meanwhile, I am finishing two more projects... and an English erotic one that I am thinking of submitting to an international publication using a completely different name than the one I will use locally.

I have so many plans for my Plan B. I am excited for my alternative career to take off but I am taking it slow, one step at a time. I don't want to take off too early and find myself crashing around my ears. I want a sure career for my Plan B just like my local author idol who's built a solid career in writing romance novels. She is really good! One of these days, I will post a link to a review that I am planning to do on all her books that I already read so far.

Yes, I am a little bit inspired and I will use this opportunity to finish one project tonight. Hopefully!


Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Two Ex-Bestfriends

Best friend back in Grade 6 to 2nd Year High School is now happily in a relationship with a foreigner. I keep seeing her status updates in Facebook about the guy. They are currently abroad traveling together. They seem happy with each other. The guy's good-looking and seems to be someone with sense. Ha-ha!

A part of me is envious because she finally found someone. Maybe, one day, I will find mine, too? This year? Next?

Best friend back in college days who was formerly a high school close friend is married to a woman who I think manipulated him in more ways than one. I remember when he used to hang out here at home, he would tell me about his plans for the future, of how he wanted to have a family of his own, wife AND KIDS! But the woman had no plans of conceiving, obviously, because she has a set of nephew and nieces she adores so much. She sicced her nephew and nieces on him and, well, they became their 'babies'. I feel sad for him. He wanted to have a large family of his own because he was an only child and his father abandoned him and his mother in favor of a new family with a couple of kids. Oh, well, it may not be the life he wanted but it is now the life that he chose.

I miss the latter a lot. He used to be my confidante, the person with whom I could tell my worries and fears about my career and finances. We used to share dreams about the future especially in our careers and immediate family. When he got married, it all changed. It's okay with me. I just miss the friend I used to have.

I will be completely happy on my own eventually, I know that. For now, I just let myself feel sadness, envy, and then I tell myself to move on.

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Burnt out!

The drive isn't there anymore.

'Yan ang lagi kong naiisip na pilit kong inaalis sa isipan ko. Nakakahiya kasi na sa rami ng blessings na dumarating sa akin, hindi ko dapat naiisip ang ganito. Hindi ako dapat nakakaramdam ng pagod.

But the truth is that I am exhausted beyond exhaustion! I think you call this burnt out. I have no one to blame but myself, of course. I have spread myself too thin and this is the price I have to pay for pushing myself too far.

I've been thinking of so many things the past several days. To be honest, I am now thinking more and more of going back to the corporate world. For real, this time around. I still scared of going back but the excitement is also present alongside the fright. I know I can do it! For how long is the question. Hahaha!

I am crossing my fingers and praying really hard that things will fall into place very soon. My mind might still change in the next couple of days but I think I can safely say that I am 65% sure of going back to being a corporate rat.